Thoughts on Spirituality and the emotions that follow

The true grit of what I would like to talk about within this blog post as the third entry is the effect on my emotions that went with this practice. Mood swings and rapid changes are not something I am unfamiliar with. From childhood therapy appointments to high school psychiatry visits I have been in and out of the clinic setting for a large portion of my life and through that experienced a wide array of possibilities. What I had not fully expected was that my thoughts on yoga would become a casual alternative. I had dabbled in holistic ideas around high school such as crystals and incense, but it was more for fun than practical ideas. This, however, has become somewhat of an outlet. A way to separate myself from a mood or bad thought in a simpler way. Vinyasa yoga serves not only as a sort of meditation but a good workout which boosts endorphins. Circulating these thoughts and feelings creating a more positive environment for me.

            I am unsure if it was really me controlling my thoughts or having an outlet available to aid in my emotions but at the end of the day is there truly a difference between the two? I would argue probably not. Yoga has always been very interesting to me like I mentioned in previous blogs but now I am able to look at it from a more personal perspective from self-experience. This also changed my views towards religion which has previously been something I am interested in but don’t commonly practice. Yoga as its own meditation became this sort of spiritual practice with no median other than me much like prayer in a sense. The practice also became a bonding experience between my roommates and I. I would be out in the living room doing it following along some odd video I found at random times, and I would be joined jokingly by my roommate which then really turned to enjoyment. It became a way for us to hangout with no regard for anything else just something to do that didn’t feel like a “task” anymore but just a way to connect as friends. In all truth I am excited to see how the yoga continues and if I notice myself doing it even after all of this or even without noticing becoming a more passive experience. I wonder if that passiveness would take away from the presentness of the moment. I think in time and more practice I will know.